Sometimes,
the broken pieces can’t be put back together.
Let it go.
How? How can people just expect to just leave everything behind and move on just like nothing at all happened? I have no idea about others but I don’t function like that. I think about the thing that is not even there. Actually, I overthink about that is not even there. And here I would be trying to letting go off things that had just happened. Well, it’s not like I want to think over and over about it. I sometimes completely hate even thinking about it, but then there is this mind which has a mind of its own which does its own thinking. If at all, if it thought of theoretical physics or those vast applications of mathematics, it would have been completely great. Or even about the future that is yet to happen and somehow we are in control of it so as to what destiny we should be having. But no. Not any of those. It has to think about the things that make the dent a little more deeper with each passing thought, well it isn’t passing if it is staying for a much longer time than it should.
Let it go? No, I can’t. But yes, I want to.
Why? Why should I let it go? Why does someone expect me to let it go? Because it is ruining us, it is ruining our mind and most importantly it is making us sadder. But then again, why does it have to happen in the first place. We can’t control certain things, yes, I agree, but then again there’s all the good in the world that could have happened, but the universe chose to do the bad. And while we are sitting there and trying to let it go, we just can’t. Because we keep questioning why it even had to happen and we are unable to understand why it happened. “Whatever happened has happened, let’s just move on?”. We say this to someone struggling to with something that has happened and we say this to comfort them. And then we hear the same thing when someone else sees us in the same exact position.
That’s when it kicks in, the question so as to WHY! Why does it have to happen? But the past is something we can’t change, we can only learn from it and hope that we don’t repeat it again. And we try to learn from it and realize that we were doing everything right and if it was possible to go back in time and change, we probably might have done the same exact thing, because there was no fault in what we did. But yet the mind eating thing would happen because it involves other people who are responsible for doing the unthinkable. They then take a permanent place in the mind scratching the surface every other minute mocking the living daylights of us, reminding us that there was nothing wrong with what did, but still, it happened, it had to happen.
How can we just move away from that when there is nothing we could have done and yet the inevitable had to happen. And that makes me more angry! Because WHY!
“Let it go”
“You will be just fine”
“It’s okay”
“It’s going to be alright”
I have heard way too many times and it’s time someone said, “It’s not okay”. Because honestly, it is not okay at all. For some bizarre reason, it still hurts and the worst part is sometimes there’s nothing that could be done about it.
It’s not okay, for the things to just happen for no reason and with no explanation. And please stop telling that it’s okay because moving on might seem easy but it really isn’t. Because there is a huge dent that is left behind and hope that the bandages hold the broken pieces together. But then again, isn’t it easy to tell someone that it’s going to be alright when the future is fairly uncertain? All we know is that we are giving them and ourselves a false hope of something better, when in all honesty it might as well be the most dangerous thing. Why? Because, if the unexpected were to happen again, those bandages of hope won’t hold any longer and it will break us all over again. And after some time, the broken pieces can’t be put together anymore.
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46 responses to “Shatter”
Well obviously we all go through some things, to give you a concrete example: I loved and trusted someone on the past (to the point that I almost married him). For some damn reasons, he broke up with me and left me shattered.
He abandoned me for short. Oh abandoned might be a simple word to describe what he did. I don’t think I could ever forgive him. And I know how much it hurts that I almost thought of killing myself when he left me. After years I have decided to move on, and no I haven’t forgotten about him, not a single week would past that I wouldn’t think about him, the difference? My stomach no longer knots whenever I think about him. Maybe, I have forgiven him, but no not forget about him (only this time I have not thoughts of hate, love or anything about him).
And I am grateful for the people who on that time (lifted me up, encouraged me, and motivated me). The ones who said, it’s going to be alright, you deserve someone better than him, etc. So I guess, personally, I don’t mind people saying, it’s going to be okay (even if I know it will not be okay that moment they say it). And yes, it could be false hope to say that, or not? Because they are merely trying to comfort me. And maybe they are right, that it is going to be okay. Because it turned out well when I stopped harboring hate towards him. When I started thinking about myself and my future goals (I went back to the right track).
If there’s anything that could go wrong, it will go wrong, but our actions/reactions afterwards, will make a huge difference.
Hi Graci, How ru? Hows everything at your end? Haven’t seen you from 2 days? Hope to see you active soon & hope everything is fine at your end…
Are you on FB??
Hi Preethi! I missed a few prompts on NaPoWriMo. I didn’t plan to miss any but something came up. I couldn’t focus on writing this week so I might not be able to post any prompts. I do have schedule post tomorrow and Wednesday. Apart from that I don’t have any other post. I have my instagram active, if ajay is your friend in IG, I am also his friend. You can add me, look for elisgraci. How are you going? I forgot to tell you that I commented on your post before but it might have gone to spam message, can you check your spam messages for me?
Hi Graci
Ooohh ok… That’s ok if you have missed a few prompts you can start writing from todays prompt if u can… Would love to read your posts… Don’t give up just coz you missed 2 prompts….
Ok will look for you on IG I am doing fine thank you I hope everything is fine at your end…
Oooh is it… Sure will look into the spam folder….
I am not sure, something came up during the weekend that is turning me up side down emotionally so that’s why I can’t focus writing. But I’m catching up on reading blogs. And yes, please look me up on IG. My account is private though so if you add me, I’ll accept you and I will follow you up.
Ooohhh ok, I understand… Big tight Hug will add u on IG
Thank you Preethi. I will wait for you on IG. 🙂
Sent the request on IG
I accepted it. I did request on you too.
Accepted
Yes, sometimes we do.
I am sorry about what had happened to you and what you had to go through. I, for one, could not even imagine how it would have been like
I am glad that you turned up okay and everything is okay as well.
It does happen like that, if something could go wrong, it will go wrong. But why does it have to go wrong in the first place? Why can’t it be a good, why not instead of going wrong, it goes right. But well, if at all it worked that way.
And also, it’s true too, what we do afterwards makes all the difference in the world.
Thank you. 🙂
I wouldn’t say that everything turned up well, I mean even now I still struggle with some things, but I guess that’s life, you always have something to conquer or battle with. Otherwise life will be boring I guess.
And there are really things or events that are beyond our control, so we can just really deal with things we have control with.
You are welcome ajay 🙂
There has to be something to make life interesting, I see.
I completely agree. Deal with things we have control with.
🙂
Exactly ajay. Otherwise you’ll just be drinking coffee all day long :p
The coffees you are supposed to give and still haven’t.
Am waiting here, if you must know! 😛
Oh come on! That is why I stopped sending you virtual coffees because I will be totally in debt with you. Haha
Still waiting for them. -_-
-_- I’m sorry…
Why are you sorry? -_-
cause I haven’t given the coffee
Oh yeah. That you still haven’t.
Meanwhile, check this out :
http://ko-fi.com/ajaykontham
lol! I’m checking it out. Your really made that? hahaha
Yeah, I did.
So you know what to do, don’t you ?
Haha. Now I can’t escape anymore to buy you a coffee. I can’t believe you had to make a big effort making a site so I can finally buy you a coffee. Your effort is greatly appreciated. Haha 🙂
That site was already there. I just had to create a page. And yeah, now you can’t give all excuses.
I know. I’ll try to do my pledge this week.
Offo. That’s alright.
It was just for fun.
You don’t have to. -_-
Haha. Hey its alright. I’ll make it up to you ^_^
Noooooo, Stop. Don’t.
-_- it’s alright.
How come you stopped from S? Where’s the other ZtoA post?
Not feeling well.
Unable to write, either. :'( :'(
Oh no, gee what happened? Do you still have a fever? Didn’t I tell you to go to the doctor to have a check. You are stubborn ajay. You have to take care of yourself. -_-
Same old thing.
Fever and cough.
I think you did.
If this continues for another day, I’ll go.
Thank you. I’ll.
You should really have a check up ajay. Health is wealth you know.
I probably should.
Oh, is it?
You should ajay, you should consult a doctor. That cough and fever aren’t good if it’s taking weeks..
Yeah, I should.
I totally agree, those bad incidents can never be forgotten, the agony one goes through can never be forgotten. Ppl saying “it will be ok or move on” they are just words to comfort us. Time doesn’t heal us, but time will only make us to accept the truth and live with it. For some ppl it might take days, for some months, for some years & for some their entire life…
And you will also come across ppl who say it is your choice, you have choose to live in pain, you choose not to move on, it is in your hands to forget and move on but you are not moving on. Sorry I do not agree with this, No matter how much one tries to forget it can never be forgotten.
It happened so it means it was meant to happen, why was such a painful even meant to happen when you did no wrong?
Why should the one who is honest and loyal go through such pain?
What wrong have I done to go through this over and over again.
What wrong have i ever done to deserve such pain? These questions will never get the right answer & These questions shall forever haunt in our heads. The broken pieces will always remain broken.
I can imagine the pain when things don’t go the way they should. And there are a a huge pile of questions that need answering, and yet there are none at all.
Yes, these questions will forever haunt us, day and night.
I don’t have an answer to any of it, but I hope they just don’t happen, instead of happening and causing all the agony in the world.
True, the broken pieces will always remain broken. The scars may heal, but the scars leave a mark, a reminder for a lifetime.
Life has it’s own ways which may seem strange. If something has to happen there is little we can do to prevent it. Moving on is in everyone’s interests
Life does have its or strange ways.
Moving on is in everyone’s and our own interest as well, right?
Well yes but it aint easy. Its tricky
Agree. It is never easy, but not impossible either. 🙂
Hmm.
Hmmm