The distance between what we say and what we want to say is marginal, and yet the impact it hard hitting. We are most likely to find ourselves in a dilemma to tell what we want to say and in turn end up hurting the people or just say what they want to hear and everyone except one goes back home happy. The choice is what decides what kind of a person we are. Do we really want to tell the truth an let that stale air run all around us and affect each and everyone coming in contact with it? Or how about we gulp that down because there would be too many people getting affected by the same. And in that way, we were the only on getting affected. It’s a healthy compromise, right? But healthy for the other, not to the one gulping it down.

Having said that, putting what we really feel has its own consequences, per say. While the others might be asking so as to why, we will get into the same mind frame so as to why. Because the reason won’t exactly be able to justify their cause and you start to doubt your own cause as well. Perhaps, making and keeping others happy is much easier than letting yourself ruin on the inside. Because letting it go is always better than taking a deep dive plunge into the unknown.

But then again, what would you choose, given a choice to make an impossible decision of letting the others know what you are thinking, or just keep it to ourselves because why even make a big issue of things when it is not even required. Would you try to iron out that wrinkle or let it be?

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Recently, I was in the middle of a lot of scrutiny. Something I didn’t even ask for or wanted to be a part of. Somehow I got involved in it. Well, like they say that something isn’t in our control. This was apparently one of those things which I wasn’t aware of, how I got myself involved into or how I was still being roped into it. Either way, I am basically at the center of it. Basically, I wouldn’t mind people saying things about me that weren’t true. Yes, that stings, but there wasn’t much I wanted to do anything about it, because I don’t see a point. How can you not see a point if you think you have a say in it and it’s a valid point, then why now? Nice question. Let me clarify. The person whom you would like to have this understanding conversation has already made up their mind, and whatever you say or do is just background noise, however much truth it is to it. And one would not like to debate with a wall that much, would anyone? So, I was there minding my own business and not getting involved in anything, because the damage that was being done was already exponential and I just didn’t want to get it any deeper. But someone who hasn’t had their share of say in it had to satisfy their hunger. Now, we may call this hunger ego or just plain stupidity, but either way, they were on a mission to do more damage. And that they succeeded. While I was trying to let his go as well, because why not, I let go off of everything else that was happening, why not this. But then there were other people who weren’t as satisfied with me letting go of this and my letting-go apparently had another meaning altogether. I had a debate with myself about how I could handle this situation that doesn’t even want to think about and the universe around me is conspiring me to get involved. I did the best in my capacity to iron out that wrinkle which had too many unanswered questions, which probably might have been the worst. But then again, it was something that I did to let go off of something, not to hold on to it. But then again, if only letting go was as easy.

What do you think of letting go? Is it a good choice to make?

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#ZtoAChallenge
#WeAllHaveAStoryWeDontTell

#ZtoAChallenge is a world-recognized challenge (it will be soon), wherein people (i.e. me and I alone) write posts on a specific theme (or just random stuff) to challenge oneself to writer better and hopefully learn along the way. This year’s theme is We all have a story we don’t tell. Hopefully, I will try to bring out the story as truthfully as I can. What I mean to say is I will try my best to write as much as I can and hopefully bring out what I really wanted to convey, those in between the lines stories.