A week is over. Another came by and went off in a dilemma. “Hey buddy, it’s December”, heard this while I was walking back to my room. I barely remember this year,2010. Its DECEMBER. It was so fast. I never knew when time flew by and left me to the last month of the year. What about the resolutions I made at the start of the year? Do I remember any of those? Frankly speaking, “I do not remember even a single resolution!” . I guess, it’s time to make new ones. Right?




I am not worried about making a new set of resolutions by the beginning of the next year. I am feeling it quite awkward. It is because, when I try to make some things straight and absolutely nothing goes well, then what is the point in making such attempts and wasting time. I would like to make a long list of resolutions and with full determination to implement the very first day of the month January. But, sometimes things don’t work as we think and always gives us a blow at the right and the perfect time. The new year starts and with in no time its December. It’s hard to believe though, but time flies at the speed of light. Before, I could even think and even try to implement any of my so called resolutions, the year comes to an end and I write the same old thing. Another passes by and I question myself, “What did do this year?”. The answer from inside me echoes,”Nothing“.




Nothing. I just can’t believe it. 350 days passed, just like a whoosh. This is quite obsolete. Some days were longer and some days were shorter, but none of the days were like, “Wow, what a day is today? Surely I want to remember this day. I had some bad hiccups last night. And some bad days this year. Sometimes, I wish somethings shouldn’t have happened. I do not know how this year is going to end, but I can tell with surety that this was not a good year. I realized so many things. I wish they never happened. I am stuck with one thing. I don’t know whether it is for good or for bad. But, I just wish that didn’t have happened, but somewhere in my heart, I wanted it to happen. I am not telling it, margining it as my personal thing. So, please don’t mind about it. Besides that many unexpected things happened. 




Firstly, I wasn’t stable. Stable in the sense, I was never in a fixed place. Once I bagged a College Hostel seat, which I never wanted, I had to settle here. I had to move on. Frankly, I hate the idea of college hostel and when the reason is so weird, ” I don’t eat food well, if I stay outside”. Precisely, I was in four different places this year, constantly moving a shifting the heavy load. I guess it was in August, when I reached the last stand-out and I was told to stay here for another two years, until I complete my under-graduation. Well, so it is. Four months have passed and stepped deliberately into the fifth month. About academics, it’s hard to say. The higher the difficulty and and the meaner are the subjects. The tougher the job gets to subside the literal weight on the shoulders. And I had a very unusual experience this time, while I was writing the exams. A typical feeling overcame my pestilent little brain. I just knew that something was wrong, but had nothing to straighten up the things. 




I had been finding a bit difficulty in adjusting the sudden changes in places. “Did I overcame it yet?”. The answer is still a ‘No’. I had been trying to figure it out, but I being so poor at statistics, couldn’t actually figured it out correctly. Now, leaving about the odd things of the, “Has anything good happened to me this year?” . Hmm, as far as I can think of, “Nope, nothing good“. The college had started and the atmosphere is getting a bit turgid. With the new semester on the start and a way too long time for competence, look forward to this semester to be good, if possible. Anyways leaving about the odds and the evens, I hope to make the best of this year and the coming year. So moving ahead..