After a long contemplation, I did end up going out. I had been quite busy playing games on my new Playstation. The games are limited, and by that I mean the games that I do play. I was searching for some new games to play and while I was doing that, a realization hit me. I am not interested in most of the games. I only play a specific set of games and for the a separate console is going way overboard. I could get a PC and play in that. At least the PC would be multi-purposeful online the PS5. Not only that the games do cost a lot of money. As if the money that I had been spending is not enough, I did end up making a few more purchases. Long story short, I did go out after kicking myself a few too many times to count. I had to be at a certain place by 6PM. My initial plan was to go to office the day before and go there from office. That way, I would definitely go to office. I didn’t sleep the night before. I had binging a TV series that just got dropped in Disney+. The last season they dropped one episode at a time, but for some (obviously good) reason, they dropped the whole season. Though each episode was short, I had mentally calculated that I would complete the whole season in no time and still have plenty of time to sleep and get up in the morning. Can someone please remind how bad I am at math. 

It was almost 6 AM by the time I completed the series. Whoa! I hadn’t slept and I knew that sleeping now would mean that I can’t get up in time, let alone time, I won’t be able to get up until afternoon. I was trying to decide what I can do to best use the time that I had. One thought was to go out and catch some sunrise. I did a mental math again. Sigh! As per my calculation, it would take at least an hour to go and come back, and adding the time to get ready for that and some miscellaneous it would be well past the time I wanted to leave for office. It was mathematically impossible to get all the things on time. So, I had to drop the idea of cycling in the morning to get some photos, and also if possible use my new gadget that seems to be collecting dust somewhere. And if history (n)ever taught us, I have been very bad at math, and despite all the planning, I did dose off for an hour. I got up an hour later, saw the time, felt that the bed was still cosy and went back to sleep. I woke up again, after two hours. Oh damn!

I had a few things I wanted to get done at office. One, that I would go and get the stuff I was supposed to be getting, and the other being checking the new workstation whether it was working as expected. If it did, I would have a place at one corner where no one could see and I will be much more relaxed that I am usually am at work. Oh and there was a third secret one, where I would get my camera and get some building photos, something abstract, something minimal, something out of the box, if ever I could imagine and keep my ‘what will other’s think’ at bay. And lastly, of course, I would be more focussed on work, which I have not been the whole week, or perhaps the whole month. I had been meaning to get some extra curricular stuff done, and finalizing that would be a great start. However, besides having a few items on the to do list and some of them depending on going to work, not going turned out to be for the better. I was getting a package and I had expected it to be delivered sometime in the evening. I didn’t think too much into that because initially the date was supposed to be a day later, so for some reason, I was not all that worried, where in fact I should have been. I realized that when there was a knock on the door at around 10 in the morning. I did the mental math all over again, ifI had gone to office and the package would have been at the door and someone definitely would have snatched it up. And given that there was sort of a high demand for the products n question, I can forget about getting it back anytime soon. I was glad I was home. But I still had the plan to go and collect the items I was supposed to be collecting. I wanted to be prepared, even if I wasn’t going to do the deed, why not get the free stuff.

The Maps apps should some weird ass routes to get to the destination. I had (not surprising) miscalled the place. I was expecting it to be closer than expected. This place was obviously not easy to get to from office, it was way too far. There had been a few too many addresses floating around and I was not where what meant. The wind was fierce, like it had a grudge. It was hitting like a tornado and on top of that the temperature was low, which meant that it was freezing hell, I mean opposite of hell’s norm but it was feeling like hell. It was sunny and it was hitting directly in my eyes which made me think that should have brought my sunglasses. Actually, I wanted a new glasses anyway, I had this thought for a fraction of a second to get those new one. Now that I think if, I jus kicked myself considering all the debt I am pushing myself in. I got my items and while I was returning, I realized that the place was know to me. It is on my usual bike path. I would have reached much sooner and had I known. I did try to take a few pictures, remember those abstract, buildings, streets and whatnot I had been meaning to click. I am not sure whether it is the marathon that the people were running for, or perhaps I am trying to draw lines not meant to be drawn, but I should be the one running. I need that practice, if I want to run the (half) marathon that I had registered to. What do you think, will I even wake up in the first place, let alone going for the run. In my mind, I want to go, but given that my stamina sucks, quite evidently proven by the last run I had where I barely ran 1km and almost died of exhaustion. It is very unlikely, right? But what if?

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